(yes, I know, second post in one day) and another phrase that commonly leads to my blog.
I need the tears so very much. I need to feel the fall. I need the release that only tears can give.
I am very happy that Dragon doesn't think he has to spank me to tears every time. It has NEVER happened. My eyes have gotten a little moist but never a cleansing cry. I cried once after a punishment. Not a tear shed during. He tried to do it once and it ended in disaster. He took me right to the edge of endurance and just a shade too far on the other side of what I could take.
I don't think pain can make me cry. I have chronic pain. Hurting every day kinda takes the tears out of pain. Even when I am rating my pain at 8 or 9 I still don't cry. Dragon knows when it gets that bad because I get very still and quiet. I withdraw from the world to deal with this overwhelming sensation.
But back to my question. How or maybe Why do you cry during a spanking? I have seen women cry during a fun, sexy kind of spanking. Some cry during a maintenance and most women that blog cry during a punishment. I read posts where the men say a spanking isn't a spanking unless that are 20-100 good swats. That he must steel himself to continue until the HOH has reached that number. Doesn't matter how her backside looks or her level of distress. Yep. I am very happy Dragon isn't one of those! Dragon spanks until he feels my body accept the swats. It isn't relaxation. It is something else he feels in me that tells him the task is done. Not tears.
is it corner time? the lecture? shame? humiliation? Help me out here. Over 2 years of TTWD and I still have dry eyes.
I want to cry. I need to cry as the paddle falls and I don't know why I can't.
Oh well. No point in wanting it now. The paddle is too loud. Since we aren't in our own home we have to be very careful. I have a small hand of ginger to de-stress with tonight and Dragon is going to stop by and get some icy hot cream. I think I may take a stroll and see what kind of switch I can find too. It has been 30 years since I have felt a switch. From what i remember, they are deadly quiet and pack a wicked sting.