Thursday, March 24, 2016


Why the song? Because I like it.  It really has nothing to do with my post. It is just that random of a day.

Dragon is slowly coming back to life.  He goes to the gym with me.  He is working in his workshop building pretty things. He even borrowed his father's welder and is making neat things for the house.  He has even gotten interested in a television series. "Arrow" is a super hero movie. I think it is based  off of a DC comic book.

He helped me get my workout room back into shape and after a workout in our little home gym, we watch Arrow.  Between episodes or during breaks he paddles my backside.

Yes, you read that correctly.  He has rediscovered his spanko side.  That makes me very happy.  No less than 4 sessions already this week.  

Happy me!!! And for more than one reason. I hope this lasts.

Sunday, March 20, 2016

The List

When I first heard about The List, I thought it was an excellent idea.  10 things that you will always forgive.  The point is that you never write it down. When your husband makes you mad you just say, "That's on the list."

But I got to thinking.  Dangerous hobby, I know.

What I already do is better.  I look at what made me mad and ask myself a question.  Is this part of who he is?  If the answer is yes, I realize that there is nothing to forgive.  I promised to love this man for better and for worse.  To love him unconditionally.  All of him.  Even the parts that I don't like.  I accepted him as is.

Yes, I have a list.  No, I never wrote it down and it has absolutely nothing to do with forgiveness.  It has everything to do with acceptance and my love for Dragon.

If you hear me say, "That's on the list!"  You now know what it means.

Monday, March 7, 2016

Sensation Play

Yep, I'm still here.  Sorry I'm not posting much but life is super busy!  Not so busy that we aren't taking care of each other though.

One of my favorite scenes is sensation play. It totally blows my mind.  How many different sensations are there?  What does it do to you when a feather tickles your back at the same time a paddle hits the sweet spot with a ginger fig burning away deep inside your backside?


That is a start.

Now add in a blind fold and ear buds for sensory deprivation.  And bondage to make sure that you feel absolutely helpless.  Did I mention that we are in a large garage not our nice bedroom?

Feeling just a little vulnerable?

The paddle is put away and the floggers come out.  Endorphins go into overdrive.  My ability to resist is gone.  All that is left is acceptance and reaction.

The sharp blade of a knife scrapes across my skin.  The ginger plug is removed and refreshed by scoring it with a bamboo skewer.  The misery burn returns full force.  Clips go on my nipples and clit.  The flogger comes back out harder than before.  I can't see or hear.  I can't pull away.  Just feel the overwhelming mix of sensations.

Dragon removes the clips and I feel the sharp sensation that is anything but relief. I can't even rub my nipples to relieve the sting.  The paddle smacks my poor aching clit.  I am a quivering mess.

Do I focus on my nipples? Stinging back? The ginger fig or the paddle that is turning my backside a deep shade of red?

My nerve endings are singing with every sensation imaginable.

He removes the ginger fig, firmly holds my hips as he finally takes his pleasure.  He removes the head phones so that I can hear his praise as he takes me.

The blindfold is removed and then the rope.  He wraps me gently in a blanket and lays me down on the soft mats.  His hands sooth the leftover sting and I slowly come back to reality.

Sated, relaxed and absolutely content.