Sunday, July 28, 2013
We were having a little play session in the garage. Just a short one to de-stress before the new week begins. Dragon moved me from his lap over to the motorcycle. He placed my hands on the seat and moved my feet back a step. After a few swats I started getting tired, so I shifted just a little. I rested my head on the seat and stretched my arms out over my head. Very comfortable position. ***** Well... It is comfortable now. A month ago there is no way I could have done that. ******* Happy me! My hard work is starting to pay off. I am 4 weeks into P90X and I am already seeing results. Still very tired all the time, no energy but I am stronger, more stable and more flexible. I'll take what I can get.
Thursday, July 25, 2013
It isn't domestic violence. It isn't about spanking. It isn't about being micromanaged. ******* So it isn't a lot of things. What makes it work? What makes it worth the effort? ********* The intensity of DD demands very good communication skills. It forces you to really listen to what your significant other is saying. Both spoken and read in the face and body. DD makes you pay attention. ****** DD increases intimacy. It is a side effect of all that communication. And I can't think of anything more intimate than a bare bottom, over the lap spanking. If a man isn't turned on by his wife's submission and naked body, dd won't fix anything. ******DD encourages honesty. It makes me more aware of Dragon's needs. As I get more attentive, so does he. ***** Why does it work? It just does. All the closed minded naysayers don't know what they are missing. Their loss.
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Yesterday morning, I was making Dragon's lunch. Something I do six days a week. I make it the same way every day. Just the way he likes it. When I looked up, I saw Dragon looking at my with a smile on his face. He said " I love you too " ******** To him, that simple act shows how much I love him. The sandwich neatly wrapped, fruit and a cookie. With a napkin folded on top. How do you show love to the the most important person in your life? Sometimes small actions speak louder than words and feel better than a hug.
Friday, July 19, 2013
Yep. We can still do it. ****** We went out to the garage to look for the Haynes manual on the truck. I saw the Chair and then I saw the Bag. It was dusted with sawdust and hidden under the miter saw but there it was. ***** I looked over at Dragon with that smile that says FUN! He took me up on my offer. He chose the walnut paddle, sat down and patted his leg. Wowza. It has been a while, so the swats had a good sting. It was very nice to be back over his lap. It was nice to feel his dominance.
Wednesday, July 17, 2013
Slowly my body is firming up. By by pudge. It is coming with hard work and discipline. Not the fun kind, unfortunately. I am exchanging bad habits for positive ones. It is slow going but it is happening! The truck is still parked. Dragon rides the motorcycle to work everyday and I am stuck at home. We have a few more things we can do with the truck before rebuilding the transmission. Something called the solenoid and a simple fluid change. *********** How is life with Dragon? Great. He tries to keep the worry away from me and shoulder it all himself. That doesn't work. We argue, discuss and make up. We are hoping the VA gets around to his disability claim soon. Their doc said 75-90%. We aren't expecting numbers that good but something would help. Life goes on. We play like hormonal teenagers. Always touching and kissing. It isn't the needy clinging. It is all play. I think Dragon loves what is happening to my body? He can't keep his hands to himself. Time to hit the shower. Today I did arms, shoulders and abs. Then cut grass. Still more to do today.
Friday, July 12, 2013
My grandmother is getting out of the hospital today. It is frustrating to not be there? My brother gets the layman pat on the head. I want a more detailed explanation. Did she get thrombolitics? Why didn't she have a ct scan day one? Just how severe was the stroke. Grrrr. Or did our wonderful medical system which is heading to socialized medicine, write her off because she is 87? We managed to get the truck to auto zone and have a part ordered. I don't know if this is going to fix the problem but we are going to try a few things before we take it to a mechanic. Nothing fun this week. We are both super stressed.
Wednesday, July 10, 2013
First the truck starts acting funny. Thank goodness we finally got my daughters car running. Then the dash lights up. Check engine light flashing, the overdrive flashing and a transmission fault warning. WHAT??? Give me a break! Now the check engine light is on in her car again. Ug!!! Can I just hide? #@$% And it doesn't stop there. This morning I got a call from my brother. Our grandmother isn't doing good. They called an ambulance for her. Two states away and I don't have transportation. Can you see me on the motorcycle putting down the interstate at 45 miles an hour? I need my Dragon
Monday, July 8, 2013
Week one of P90X is behind me. I have made some small changes in my diet to. A healthier breakfast and a planned lunch. No more skipping meals. I am already starting to see a difference. I can do more of the workout with more weight and I see the difference in my ankles and hands. The scales show a 2 pound loss. Happy me. **************************** Dragon was so happy with my progress that he gave me a good girl spanking in my workout space. Yowza. My backside sure has gotten tender. It didn't take long to put me in my happy place. How does he know just what I need?
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
This is one of the hardest holidays for me. 23 years ago today I went to my father's funeral. I was 18 years old and only a month out of high school. He lost a 2 year battle with ALL. I thought that Dragon's retirement would mean that I would be able to put flowers on his head stone? Not this year. Dragon is trying to figure it out but I don't see a way. Everyone is celebrating and I am crying again. The good news is that I won't have to deal with family. Dragon has things to do and can't leave the area. *** Tonight, I am going to ask for a spanking. Maybe even a full scene. Dragon knows how to help. He knows what I need. I'll ask and leave the rest up to him. I want to fly. Or at least forget for just a little while. Ropes and knives maybe. That will get my mind off of everything. We don't have any fire sticks made. That would add just the right mind fuck to the night. Nothing blows my mind more than seeing flames dance across my skin. The alcohol we use burns away and leaves my skin hot and mostly undamaged. *** Now to wait. Dragon may have to work late tonight. Even if he is tired, he will take the time to help me. He knows how hard it is to put on a smile and act like nothing is wrong. He will do what it takes to make it easier. Love my man just a little