The Reluctant HOH

Did you know that Dragon didn't want TTWD when I first brought it up?  Nope, he wanted nothing to do with it.  He liked the shared responsibility.  He liked coming home and relaxing.  Besides this DD stuff is a passing fad of hers.  She will get over it in a few weeks.  What woman in her right mind would want to be punished?

He was even reluctant to spank me.   He wanted kink in our marriage bed but that didn't include spanking his wife.  It took months for me to finally talk him into erotic spanking.  Lots of talking and negotiating.  Really, I think he just got tired of me asking and finally gave in.

Dragon sat nervously on the bed.  I was just as nervous about it.  I dropped my pants and panties and placed myself across his lap.  It took a few tries to find a position that was comfortable to both of us but we managed.  Then the first blow fell.  It took my breath away.  Rapid fire a few more fell and my body started reacting in ways I had never imagined.  I had never thought that a spanking could be sexual but it was.  It confused me.

I don't remember how long that first spanking lasted.  It wasn't the best one ever.  We both had to learn.  From then on, Dragon started taking his wife in hand.  He did it in such small baby steps that I never even realized it.  He didn't punish in obvious ways but he had ways of letting me know he wasn't pleased.  A quick smack on the bottom or a glare.  He would give me a list of things he wanted done and I knew he expected it done.

We kept this up for years.  The occasional erotic spanking, tasks and me learning how to submit to him.  Every time I obeyed him, it built him up just a little more.  When he felt the power he really had over me, I think he liked it.  He walked a little taller and slowly became a true leader at home and at work.


After several years of this, I asked him for help with something that was clearly a problem. My MOUTH! I had picked up the nasty habit of cussing. The F bomb. I hate that word but it was a reflection of how I felt on the inside. I just couldn't keep it together. Finally I asked for help.

I gathered all my courage and again asked for him to discipline me physically. Not just in play but for real. The biggest shock for me was in his answer. He said YES! We laid down a few rules but he really wanted to focus on my mouth. And if I am honest, I will admit that I did too.
My loving, gentile husband took the cherry paddle and let me know just what he thought about my filthy mouth.  We called it a reminder or maybe a look at what I would get if I didn't clean it up.  It was hard, fast and to the point.  Not like a sexy, fun spanking at all.  My backside was warmed but strangely so was my heart.  We made love for the first time in a very long time.

It has been about 8 years since I brought up discipline for the very first time.  We have came so far since and neither one of us want to go back to the way things were. At times it has been an emotional roller coaster.  Those first few punishments.  Learning how to submit on my own.  Learning how to accept the reality of discipline vs my soft fluffy fantasy.    When I first asked for it, I didn't think our marriage could get any better.    I didn't think we could get any closer but we have.


ps, I must be crazy.  I know I have messed up in the last few weeks.  Broken rules, disobedience.  I can't list them all off.  Sometimes I don't even realize it until he points it out.   I have asked Dragon for a catch up spanking.  A punishment to cover all of those little infractions and broken rules.  He has a lot on his mind right now and so do I.  I understand that.  The lack of privacy is an issue too.  He has a policy of not delaying a punishment which I agree with.  But we really need to clear the air.  I am holding on to too much guilt and he is not walking as tall as he once did.  All of theses little things are like a wedge between us.

I know this won't be an easy spanking to take.  Dragon said he would rather do another fun spanking.  I planted the seed of punishment this morning.  I asked.  He is going to have all day to think about my poor attitude, disobedience and forgetfulness.  Do you really think he is still going to want a fun spanking?  I don't think so either.

What have I gotten myself into!  Yikes!