An oh boy did we talk. We talked about sex, kink, play and on a more serious note, DD. I asked him why role play had gone away. It pushes my limits and hard. I will admit that. Dragon was afraid it pushed me too hard but I miss it. We talked about where to make our new beginning with this kind of play. I think with panties. He picks out my panties and says when they can be worn. A good place to start that we hope won't push too hard.
We talked about kneeling. I have wanted this to be a part of both sides of TTWD for a while. Kink and punishment. Now I know why it isn't. He is afraid of hurting my hip. I reminded him that i have safe words I can use at any time, for any reason. I won't put myself in a position that will hurt me. And I will red out long before I am hurting. I think he is going to give it a try. Kneeling on pillows for my comfort.
He says, but it feels silly. I reminded him kink did too at first. And our first few discipline session felt down right foolish to both of us. I asked him to give it time and try it. Not just once but several times. Let's see if this is something that could work for us. He reluctantly agreed.
It is probably one of those "humoring the silly wife" things but that is ok. DD started that way and now he doesn't think it is silly at all.
Hopefully we will find a house this week. We are talking to a broker who deals with rentals in a area we would really like to live. Keep your fingers crossed and say a prayer. It will be nice to have our own space again. Privacy to play! My sewing room so I can make some cute panties! and back to our routine! Please pray. I am tired of being in limbo.
The kneeling got easier for the both of us very quickly- I hope it does for you too. I am finding that kneeling and offering myself to him that way before we start our play really intensifies everything. I am able to submit and allow myself to let go completely very easily after kneeling.
ReplyDeleteThere are times that I knelt at his feet just by the depth of submission I felt in that moment. I hope he gives it a try.
DeleteI recognize the "humoring the silly wife" thing. Only with us it was the silly husband.
ReplyDeleteWorked fine.
The funny thing is, he comes around after a few tries. He has decided that he likes most my silliness. Especially that spanking thing!
Deletefingers and toes crossed so that you find the perfect house for you.
ReplyDeleteI can always tell when hubby is humoring me. It ticks me off hope you are more patient about it than I.
Still looking for a house. We have two to look at and another city to look in.
DeleteI can too. He doesn't get into a scene until he is having fun too.
Hope you find the kneeling time something you embrace that helps you focus on your submission. Many subs find that it does. And good luck on finding a house.
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Right now I kneel on my own for my daily meditation. I hope that makes it easier for me when he decides to give it a try. I see the benefit, just wish he did.
DeleteThanks. Still looking
I have thought of talking to S about kneeling.... praying for you and your family!
ReplyDeleteThank you Mikki
DeleteIt's nice to get a break and just have time to talk once in a while. Good luck in finding a house!
ReplyDeleteIt was nice. We always seem to have nice talks on long drives. He finds out all kinds of new things.
DeleteI'll need all the luck I can get with this house hunting. The market is tight.