Comfort

Last night we received some news that set us both back on our heels.  One of those OH $##% moments and what are we going to do now?  Dragon was over his head.  I sat down and went into that quiet place where problems are solved.  I prayed a very panicked prayer and worked on calming down.

I did manage to calm down after a few minutes and discovered that it wasn't as bad as all that.  We will make it.  It won't be easy.  We may not come out of this with our stellar credit rating but with Gods help, we will find a way.  Dragon redid the numbers.  They are still bad but not as bad as we thought.  The pennies were counted and recounted.  Yep.  We are drastically short.  But we have each other.  That is what matters.

After the number crunching, we went for a power walk.  We talked some more and went over more numbers.  It is going to take time to get back on our feet.  That is reality.  We knew it before he ever retired. This was never going to be easy.  We came back to the house much more relaxed.

Until bed time....

Dragon's head hit the pillow and he immediately began to snore.  As soon as I closed my eyes all the worst case issues started playing out in my head.  Homeless, jobless, hopeless.  My heart rate spiked.  My body was shaking.  Miserable.

I turned to Dragon for comfort.

Yes, he was sleeping but there are some things that come natural to man.  I took off my pj bottoms and moved his hand to cup my sex.  No idea why that is so comforting but sometimes it is.  No sexual fondling.  Just holding.

I finally fell asleep with his hand cupping that most private place.  I even had good dreams.

I know the money stuff will work out.  God never promised things would be easy.  His promised that he wold never leave me and he never will.  Prayer and the comfort of my Dragons strength.