Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Where were you

when the world stopped turning? I was in Contwig Germany at our rental house. Dragon had just returned from a deployment. I was pregnant. We were both busy. He was hanging wallpaper and I was staying out of his way. The girls were watching a movie. My mom called and I was happy to hear from her. I had no clue... She told me to turn on the TV and come back to the phone. I was in tears. Only one tower had been hit. She called that fast. When the second tower was hit, I knew it was no accident. Dragon would be leaving again soon. My greatest hope was that he would see our fourth child before he had to leave. ★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★ Strangers I hate airports. They are places of tears. My body shakes as I try to control them. Then I look at my children and I see their hearts breaking. My own tears fall….He sees my tears and his iron grip of control begins to slip. People turn away. They can’t stand to see our pain. They know where he is going. They know we are left behind. I stand at the window watching the plane pull away from the gate. Walk that lonely walk back to the car. The drive home seems longer than ever. The house does not feel like home. ★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★ My best friend, my husband, the father of children has left. I don’t know where he is going. Don’t want to know. More questions than answers. When will he come home? Will he come home? How do I survive? He is my life. He is everything. I am me because he is with me. No more watching or reading the news. Not even just to read the headlines. Routine. Step by step each day I learn to survive. Run, breakfast, cut grass, shower, lunch, clean, check email, walk the dog. Same thing every day moving in a daze. I am afraid to hope. ★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★ At the airport again. The seasons have changed. But then so have I. I stand at the arrival gate waiting for a stranger. He is my husband and the father of my children. My tears fall once again. I am nervous and afraid. Will he really come home this time. Will everything be the same? I hope so. There he is. I see him. He has cut his hair again, his skin is darker, his eyes are different. I expect his hug to feel the same but it doesn’t. He walks ahead of me much faster than I can keep up to get to the luggage pickup. I know I should understand why but I don’t and he can’t explain. We are strangers again. a military wife


  1. Thank you Rose for you and your Dragon's service to our nation. You and your family have sacrificed so much for all of us, often without the recognition and support that you deserve. It because of your Dragon and families like yours that we sleep at night, knowing that the strongest among us defend us. It is insufficient to say Thank you, but words cannot adequately express my appreciation.


  2. Thank you for your sacrifices.

    Happy he is home with you for good now and pray for all those who are still experiencing the distance.

  3. This made me cry. I cannot begin to thank you, Dragon, your kids, for your service, for your sacrifice. I will forever be grateful to people like you.

    I am so happy he's home now and that you both are healing. Big hugs and appreciation.

    Prayers for all those who continue to serve and for those they left behind.

  4. Giving thanks that your Dragon is home with you now Rose and that he continues to heal.

    Thank you both and your children for your service to and sacrifice for our country.

    Sending lots of prayers and healing energy to all of you.


  5. Beautiful yet heartbreaking at the same time. Thank you both for such a sacrifice. I know I take for granted that I have my husband day in and day out everyday. My brother in law is a Marine and I know it's so very hard for my baby sister every time he deploys. I can't imagine the strength it must take for you to keep moving in his absence and what it must be like once he comes home safe, yet has to regroup.

  6. I missed this post...Thank you for your sacrifices for our country. I can imagine its so rough being a military wife...

    I was in my morning routine waiting for day care kids to show up at my house watching the news...Tyler called to sew if I saw. then I called my sis and I watched the second plane hit..Ooo my... then my siblings and cousins start calling wanting me to go get their kids out of school.. I live in central U.S. not near NY.

    Anyway I did go get the kids after I got my oldest from school who was in K lol it was a rough day no doubt