Things see to be going so good. We are making bills plus some. Dragon's job is still iffy but we will worry about that when it happens. The kids are getting a very good Christmas.
Life is good.
Right?
Then I learn that my baby girl, my oldest daughter had a miscarriage.
I feel like I am on a roller coaster.
The football game today did make me smile and do a happy dance. But made the loopty loops on my roller coaster day nauseating.
You see, in the south, football is King. In the grand state of Alabama (my home state) you are either for Alabama or Auburn the under dog. Most of my family cheers for Alabama. As a small child, I thought the whole thing was stupid. So... I did what any defiant child would do. I chose the other team.
Alabama wins more games but I am loyal. Every year, I cheer for Auburn. This year they weren't ranked. Not even on the charts. They played hard and only lost one game all season. AlAlabama was unbeatable. ZERO losses. Until today.
WAR EAGLE!!!!!
WE WON!!!!
Auburn now holds the #1 spot
I am currently in a series of loops on this roller coaster of mine. Dinner is ready but I can't eat. Best pot of chili I have ever made and all I want to do is cry.
Yep. Feelin just a little emotional tonight.
Tomorrow, I will be the mom in tears. My two youngest kids will be baptized.
See?
I don't know how I am supposed to feel. Happy? Sad? Both?
I am confused....
Happy for the Auburn win, sorry about the miscarriage.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on the football. I'm a big sports fan, not particularly college though. But I know how it feels when a favorite underdog team wins. Sorry to hear about your daughter's miscarriage. I'm sure it's very difficult having good and bad news at the same time and not wanting to express too much celebration for one when there are sad things happening too. But some good and some bad is better than all bad.
ReplyDeleteIt's a sweet thing to cheer for a losing team and watch them win.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on your children's baptism. An important milestone and time for your family to come together.
I'm so sorry to hear about your daughter. No mom wants her child to face what she faced, but at the same time you will be more empathetic and caring because you *have* faced her pain. Too many moms would say the dismissive kinds of things people said to you (and hurt you), like it wasn't a baby yet. Your losses have prepared you to be a compassionate, loving mom for your daughter when she needs you the most.
It's confusing to experience happiness with sadness, but I'm glad something made you smile today.