We were cleaning up the garage yesterday and found a box of letters. Ones I sent to Dragon when he was deployed. Those ment more to him than I ever imagined. Here is the first one I picked up out of the box. He wrote this one to me in 2009.
I am sorry I haven't written more. I know how much a letter means. I guess I have been lazy this deployment. Every day I wake up and think I am one day closer to you. Right now that is all I want to know. Then someone comes to me and says we only have xx days to go and that sounds like forever to me. I am looking forward to spending time with you again. I am going to try to be a better husband when I get back. I know we have changed and it is hard to make the switch from being around people I really don't like all that much to being with those I love dearly. It seems like it would be easy but for some reason the jerck stays with me too long. Please help me so that I can make the transition and show you how much I really love you. I don't want to get home and hurt you. I know that I already have by the lack of letters this trip and I am very sorry. Please forgive me. I love you always.
This was written during a huge ptsd break. We were holding on but only just. When he came home, we were able to put our marriage back together. We dated, went on picnics and long walks. It was hard but we came out of it better than ever.