Isn't it funny? After all this time and many spankings, I still get butterflies when I know Dragon is about to spank me? That heart stopping moment when I know it is going to be a long hard emotionally cleansing session? Yep. That one. Heart in mouth, stomach doing flip flops.
Tonight, I will be surprised if tears don't fall. I am worried, stressed out, overwhelmed and over worked. I am at the end of my rope. So what is Dragon going to do? Use that rope to tie me up. No getting away tonight. Long, hard and thorough. And he tells me that there will be sex after my bottom is reddened to his satisfaction. yuck gross squick!
Trade places with me please? Can you spare a little room for me to hide under the bed or in the closet? Please?
Yes, I have safe words. Even tonight I can red out at any moment.
No, I don't like spanking. Hate it actually. What I do like? The feeling of a blistered bottom the next day and what it does to my head. My worry meter is reset to zero. I feel relaxed and submissive.
here is hoping I can last long enough tonight to get the spanking I so desperately need. It is hard to stay there
and take swat after stinging swat. It is hard not to run or red out.
Fingers crossed and panties down......
across the bed
hand or paddle?
garage or house?
worrying will not help me now!