Changing perceptions 7 Comments
Journal Entry by ### about 1 month ago (another Fet JE)
stage 1. I will never submit to a man. A man will never support me. I will never depend on a man for anything. They are all pigs.
stage 2. Ok. I’ll marry this one and let him in my life but I won’t depend on him for anything. Can’t trust a man. They are not worthy.
stage 3. Well maybe I can trust him a little.
stage 4. I’ll let him support me for a little while. Just while I’m still in school.
stage 5. I don’t want to go back to work. I want to stay home but I will not submit to him.
stage 6. Ok. Maybe I should submit to him.
stage 7. He owns me. I feel lost without him. With his encouragement I am becoming the person I always had the potential to be
wow ... if i was to be gut honest, i am probably somewhere between stage 1 and stage 2. my heart is torn cuz i love him ... just cant trust that he loves me ... or will still be there tomorrow ... or wont run when he experiences too much of me. i know i want to experience stage 7 ... and beyond. no, i NEED to experience stage 7 and beyond. it seems so ... out of reach.
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ReplyDeleteIt took me years to get to #7. We have been together for 17 years. It doesn't happen overnight.
o that is amazing that's me totally
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