Friday, March 2, 2012

Hey Dude! ! !

OPEN YOUR EYES! ! ! 


That was disrespectful and I deserve a P.

Hey, I was being lazy and made up a lame excuse.  Call me on it! ! !

Umm..... Dragon, what I did just now?  That was really dangerous.

Are you going to let me get away with that?  Really?  WOW.... ok then.

Dragon,that really wasn't your fault.  I was being a bitch and played the blame game on you.

Still trying to understand all this stress stuff.  I'm still trying to be helpful but I don't know how to cope with change.  Isn't it strange?  When I need him the most, he needs me too.  We both need what the other is unable to give.  I need him pulling me back from the void.  He needs me to keep the house running smooth while he rides out the storm of job hunting.

He is in the boat without a paddle and I am over board floundering in the huge tsunami waves of life.

He is trying to shield me from this.  To protect me and make it easy.

Is that really what I need?  I know I should probably trust him but I have to think, "hey girl, you can do better than this."

If he cracked down on me the way "I" think he should, I would probably hide under the bed.

And WHEN am I supposed to have this TALK with him?  He took one of the kids out on a daddy date tonight.  I get a girl date with pooh sometime soon.  She wants to try on dresses.  (do you know how hard it is to find a cute size 2 anything?)  Not ever sure I should talk to Dragon about this right now.  He has had two phone interviews and few more applications go to stage 2.  Not sure what that means but ok.

His boat is about to be swamped and I am already in over my head.  Can someone please throw me a life saver?

please????









Update!  He is home now and I shared my post with him.  I was afraid of trying to say it out loud.  More excuses.  This way he knows what is on my mind without the whine.   No idea what he is going to do with this .  I'll have to wait and see.

8 comments:

  1. Hi Dragon's Rose, I've been in a lot of storms in my 33 years of marriage. There was a time when my husband was looking for a job, and when he accepted jobs he absolutely hated just to provide. It makes for some stressful days and a lot of calling out for help. I see you 2 are Christians so I would like to share a song with you that I absolutely love. My favorite part is "I WILL NOT be lost at sea". God bless you and your family, Belle L

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  2. Ok so I didn't leave my song that I meant to so here it is: http://youtu.be/OwhDPGMZicU
    Sorry I goofed- Belle L

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  3. Thank you Belle. Prayer is a huge part of our lives. God is our lifeguard, our pilot. He will see us safe.

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  4. I'm glad you shared the post with him. It's always best if he knows where you are at and I hope he takes care of it in exactly the right way!

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  5. Sharing a post is sometimes easier. Hope you both get what you need.

    Dee x

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  6. Susie, Dee, I shared the post and now I don't know. He didn't say much. Guess I will have to wait and see.

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  7. Is it hard to wait and see and wonder what is next?

    FD

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  8. FD, waiting is the hardest part.

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