This year I turned 40! ! ! It isn't a number I am embarrassed of. I am proud of my age. So may people don't have 40 birthdays to celebrate! Ok, celebrate is too strong of a word to use. The day passed with many greetings. About 65 on face book, a call from my mom and hugs from my family. No big party, just another day. Perfect!
It felt like any other day. School work, sewing, house cleaning and teenage drama. Errands and cooking. That suits me just fine. I don't like a lot of fuss made over anything. I'm not the center of attention. The chair over in a quiet corner of the room is my spot.
Dragon fixed his special recipe fried chicken and I had a huge all the fixins salad. Yummy! This weekend we are going to make a carrot cake and put whatever kind of candle we can find on it. It will make the kids smile and I love home made carrot cake.
Had a Ho Hum week.... Until tonight. Dragon decided that I really did need a birthday spanking this year.
The floggers came out and he started his pre impact speech.
You know I love you? Love you
You know I would never hurt you? yes, I trust you
What are your colors? green
Are you hurting too much for this tonight? I'm fine
And it begins. He always starts with the light doe flogger. Gentile rain across my shoulders. He took a little extra time to make sure my skin was good and warm. Then he moved to the narrow stingy cow hide. He wasn't so gentile with this one but I had no problem staying in position. It relaxed me in a way nothing else does. He used the elk briefly but I can't take much of the thud. It knocks my breath out. an asthma attack is a mood killer!
When he was done my back felt raw. Positively wonderful. No hint of punishment or TTWD to it. I think we may finally be finding our own balance with this life style. The pleasure is slowly coming back to impact play but punishment still holds a healthy fear in my mind. We are at a good place right now in our relationship. It isn't without problems but we are talking, communicating and working them out.
The stress is far from over. Dragons still hasn't found a job. Our life will be turned upside down in a matter a few months. Tempers are short and we are all feeling the stress. Threw all of this, I can see God at work. I see his hand in everything. It is comforting. Our faith brings a piece that would be have without it. Prayer is comforting and so is knowing that my Dragon is HOH. I am not alone in this. First i have my higher power, my Dragon and then the rest of my family.
One day, one hour, one minuet, one second at a time.