For the first time EVER, Dragon has the day absolutely off. He isn't on call anywhere. No mandatory parade, no fire works show to prepare for. It is great. We don't even have plans to go visiting. Just staying home. A quiet day.
I am holding up okay. Had a few moments of tears but still good. 24 years ago when I was 18 years old and fresh out of high school my mom woke me up. I was living with my grandmother and had just finished my second day at my very first grown-up job. I thought it was strange that my mom was there but I wasvery happy to see her. I had no idea something was wrong.
That was July 1st.
My father had passed away the night before. I knew he was in the hospital but he told me that it was going to be okay. I believed him. He tried to get out of bed on his own and fell. The fall caused a brain bleed. There was no stopping it. He only lived a few more hours.
I don't know why it still hurts so much. This year is better than most. My little car makes me feel like I have a little part of him right here with me. When it gets hard, I just go sit in the passenger seat and remember how much he loved me.
Watermelon, something cooked on the grill and sparklers. It will be a good day. My family will be together. I think my oldest has other plans. That's okay. We will have a better day anyway without her attitude.
PS she finally left her pos boyfriend. With her, I'll take any good news I can get.