Monday, April 9, 2012

of sticks and bears

Who ever thought Dragon getting help for ptsd would affect me so dramatically?  We are talking constantly.  Digging up old wounds that come back to haunt both of us.  Lives we should have been able to save.  What ifs and whys.  The triggers for me have always been there but now, they are stronger than ever.

Watching a movie.  Putting together a puzzle.  A news story.  Him getting help is like poking a sick at a mad bear for both of us.  He turns on the charm, gets cocky and arrogant.  Over compensates.  I get ill tempered and super sensitive to the little irritants of life.

We are both restless at night.  Dragging and tired during the day.  It is good that he is getting help finally but wow.  I didn't realize it would help me too.  It has to get worse before it gets better.  That is what we were told. One step at a time.


  1. So hard for both of you. I only have a very little experience but what I can I will say rocked our world for the time when we went through it. Learning what the triggers are and the best way to help when they happen takes time and if both of you are experiencing it on the same days, extra tricky. I'll be keeping you in my prayers.

  2. Thank you Susie. I recommend The Power of a Praying Wife when others are having a hard time in a relationship. I keep copies to give away. I think I may have to take my own advice and pray my way to the end of that book again. I think I need to take my own advice.

  3. Always good to take one step at a time. Good luck.


    1. Very small steps. Thanks FD and we will both need luck for this job!