Sunday, July 31, 2016

My How People Change!

Me!  I have changed!

I was a shy girl who wouldn't defend herself.  Turn the other cheek was drilled into my young brain.  No matter what, don't fight.  Take it and just walk away.

I took a lot of crap in school because of that. Punished at school, get worse at home.  Nothing the bullies could do would make me react. Not even tears.

I'm not that girl any more.

While Dragon was military, I stood toe to toe with anyone who didn't give me my way.  Chief, first sergeant or commander.  It didn't matter.  I was always polite.  I was always respectful but they knew what I thought!

But still. I never tried to defend myself. Not ever.  I couldn't hit a living, breathing person.  I couldn't hurt another person even if they were trying to hurt me.

That has changed!

In the last few months I discovered that I am still afraid of my ex husband. Very afraid and with good reason.

Little shy me is learning how to fight!  Dragon is teaching me how to punch.  How to get out of holds. How to deal with a gun or a knife. I can do this!

Some change is good.  I will not be afraid of a coward.


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    1. I'm not sure how or when Dragon got that kind of training but I'm glad he did.

    2. It's a good thing to know how to defend yourself, a very sad thing if you would ever have to use it, or need to know it all. I'm afraid we will never see unity and ppl treating each other with respect and kindness.:(

    3. Respect and kindness was drilled into my head. Mother forgot to mention that the rest of the world won't understand it.

  2. Good for empowering yourself...with help from Dragon. No one should have to live in fear...
    hugs abby

    1. One step at a time. I probably can't win a fight but I can throw a punch!

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    1. In addition to the punching bag, we now have some shields. I am trying to get past the "I shall not hit a person" block in my head. I can do an upper cut!

  4. Nice to see Dragon taking care of you and giving you skills you need.