Me! I have changed!
I was a shy girl who wouldn't defend herself. Turn the other cheek was drilled into my young brain. No matter what, don't fight. Take it and just walk away.
I took a lot of crap in school because of that. Punished at school, get worse at home. Nothing the bullies could do would make me react. Not even tears.
I'm not that girl any more.
While Dragon was military, I stood toe to toe with anyone who didn't give me my way. Chief, first sergeant or commander. It didn't matter. I was always polite. I was always respectful but they knew what I thought!
But still. I never tried to defend myself. Not ever. I couldn't hit a living, breathing person. I couldn't hurt another person even if they were trying to hurt me.
That has changed!
In the last few months I discovered that I am still afraid of my ex husband. Very afraid and with good reason.
Little shy me is learning how to fight! Dragon is teaching me how to punch. How to get out of holds. How to deal with a gun or a knife. I can do this!
Some change is good. I will not be afraid of a coward.