I wrote about a spanking gone wrong when I first started my blogging adventure. Now I have had more time to think on it.
Was it an unfair spanking? Did Dragon do anything wrong?
It really wasn't unfair. The only problem with it is that I was mad. We had a disagreement, I left before it was resolved and slammed a door. Clearly I was in the wrong. Who started the argument at that point didn't matter. I behaved disrespectfully.
Now I see what went wrong and unfortunately for me, so does Dragon.
After the punishment, I was still angry. I wasn't crying or the least little bit repentant. I WAS MAD. THAT WASN'T FAIR! He deserved that spanking, not me!
Did that spanking really go bad? I don't think so now. Now I think it didn't go far enough. Round one should have been longer and harder. Yes, I would have still gotten up from it mad. What should have happened then? Round two. Some quiet time in the bed room to think about what happened and what I did. When I figured out that I really was in the wrong, more swats.
I was so defiant for that spanking that I refused to take off my pants. WOW! What would Dragon do now? I don't even want to think about it. I know it wouldn't be pretty.
I am sure un deserved spankings can happen. Mine wasn't one of those. I was out right defiant. Every spanking I have begged out of because I thought it wasn't fair was deserved. I simply didn't want to get spanked. Yes, I need to work on that. After all, I am not a child to whine when facing the consequences of poor behavior. I should be taking the swats without whining. Knowing that they are deserved.
Trust the Dragon.