Monday, June 11, 2012

Need

There are times I NEED a spanking.

No, not a punishment.  Simply a spanking to reassure me that he is on top of his game and still in charge.

A spanking to lower my stress level.

A spanking that lets me feel his authority in a very real way.

How do I know when I need a reassurance spanking?  That part is easy.  I can feel the anziety building in my chest.  I feel uncomfortable in my own skin.  And the most accurate indicator?  My backside feels funny.  It almost hurts but not quite.  I can almost feel the spanking.  The sting of the swats.

I get this feeling when it has been a few weeks between spankings.  Flogging is not the same.  He can flog my back and leave some nice tiger stripes behind but I'll still need the paddle.

It is a mystery.  No idea why this happens but it does.  In times like this I need to be spanked to tears but I know that won't happen.  The tears won't fall.  Not from physical pain and not from the humiliation of being spanked.    I wish I could cry.

I'll update this post when I get the spanking I need.  If it happens.




Icy hot?  Hey this isn't a punishment!  My backside is on fire from ICY HOT!  This is going to be a very long day.  I think he may be planning on spanking a pre warmed bottom.

7 comments:

  1. I'll cry for you wearing ICY HOT all day. Ouch

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    1. my backside still burns from that stuff.

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  2. It's like you actually itch for it. Very interesting. Sorry about the icy hot. Be good!

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    1. The burn has faded but not the itch. I still need that spanking but I'm not saying anything to Dragon. NO WAY!

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  3. I so get this feeling!!!... I do tend to tell J, but I think he is still conflicted with the notion of needing a spanking to keep me from getting out of hand. He tends to not acknowledge it once I've mentioned it... and if I bring it up again, I feel like I'm bratting. :(

    I hope you get whatever you need most.

    ~Autumn

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  4. I get this feeling to. It also helps for me to actually ask for one, when I feel I really need it rather than do something stupid in a non-thinking moment that actually warrants one. ;)
    Good luck with the move!
    ~Addy

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