Yes, we are now the proud owners of a Violet Wand. It can go from a mild tingle to a sharp sting. So far our collection of electrodes is limited. We have the three that came with the kit and the mylar flogger. We will expand that collection one piece at a time.
I am working hard on submitting to him. Tearing down the last barriers between us. Slow but steady. One little inch at a time. No matter how embarrassing a command may be or how uncomfortable it is, he wants my immediate submission. He wants obedience even when it is hard.
I understand why. It is for our benefit. Ours. Not just mine. He needs to know that I will obey in play so that he knows I'll obey when it is important. I'll admit that it is easier that way. To already be in the habit of obeying doesn't make it automatic but it does mean that I'm more likely to do what he wants.
Dragon is home from work. Time to give him attention instead of the kindle.
Master used to say to me all the time...don't think do....He wanted me to obey without hesitation. He rarely has to say it now...and yes it makes life easier. Love to read about you two moving forward.
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Working on it. One baby step at a time.
DeleteSo happy for both of you, Rose...just sitting here smiling at how far you've come. Your hard work, love and dedication are paying off. Oh and I'll let you keep all the electrodes to yourself...really not my cup of tea. ;)
ReplyDeleteHugs and blessings...Cat
In some ways I find it easier to obey now, in other ways, at other times it is much more difficult. The battle within sometimes strengthens with me as the intensity emotionally does. What I mean is, when things are great, it is easy, when 'life' creeps in more than it should, I struggle. That being said, I know those are the times I have to submit the most, and are by far the most rewarding after. I think for many ( at least I hope I'm not alone) this is normal.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with your new found toys of torture and adventures! lol
willie