I came into our marriage with a LOT of baggage. Damaged from a lifetime of abuse. I had trust issued and I was afraid of my own shadow.
I put on a good show of dealing with it during the day but night time was a different story. As soon as the lights go out the fear escalated.
During our 20 years together Dragon has adjusted to my night light. A lamp with a low wattage bulb in it but sometimes, most of the time, it isn't enough. As I am falling asleep I startle very easy.
The slightest unexpected noise, shadows, movement. It could be anything. Dragon's arms around me help but they aren't always enough.
Last night, before I even began to struggle, Dragon got up and turned on the over head light.
The light bugged me at first. It is very bright. But I began to relax I'm his arms. I fell asleep within minutes. No startling. No jumping. No muffled screams.
Good, rest full sleep.
Dragon doesn't even like my night lights but he knows I haven't slept in two days. He wanted to try leaving the light on to help me. Just to see.
Why is that odd? I can't stand bright lights on at night. I have lamps.all over the house to keep the lighting soft. T gets rid of the hard lines of shadow. But.I wasn't sleeping at all. Only with the sun shining in the windows could I find rest.
Dragon's experiment was a success. I can't remember the last time I had such a restful night.
Love my man just a little. He is so good to me.