Wednesday, September 24, 2014

How Dragon says "I love you"

I came into our marriage with a LOT of baggage.  Damaged from a lifetime of abuse. I had trust issued and I was afraid of my own shadow.

I put on a good show of dealing with it during the day but night time was a different story.  As soon as the lights go out the fear escalated.

 During our 20 years together Dragon has adjusted to my night light.  A lamp with a low wattage bulb in it but sometimes, most of the time, it isn't enough.  As I am falling asleep I startle very easy.

The slightest unexpected noise, shadows, movement.  It could be anything.  Dragon's arms around me help but they aren't always enough.

Last night, before I even began to struggle, Dragon got up and turned on the over head light.

The light bugged me at first.  It is very bright.  But I began to relax I'm his arms.  I fell asleep within minutes.  No startling.  No jumping.  No muffled screams.

Just sleep.

Good, rest full sleep.

Dragon doesn't even like my night lights but he knows I haven't slept in two days.  He wanted to try leaving the light on to help me.  Just to see.

Why is that odd?  I can't stand bright lights on at night.  I have lamps.all over the house to keep the lighting soft.  T gets rid of the hard lines of shadow.  But.I wasn't sleeping at all.  Only with the sun shining in the windows could I find rest.

Dragon's experiment was a success.  I can't remember the last time I had such a restful night.

Love my man just a little.  He is so good to me.


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    1. He knows me better than I know myself. Love my man just a little.

  2. You have a wonderful husband. I am so sorry to hear you had a hard life when you were younger. I hope your sleeping improves soon.


    1. Today I felt rested. It was the first time in a long time. It was a good day.

  3. Hey Rose...sorry you've had such a rough life but so happy you found your Dragon. Sending lots of prayers and positive energy.

    Hugs and Blessings...