Friday, August 16, 2013

Hope

The transmission has been replaced and Dragon can fix the other problems himself. That will save us some money. We finally get to go grocery shopping. Can't completely restock but there will be food in the house. ★★★★ Dragon hasn't forgotten about ttwd. He simply hasn't been as strict lately. He knows that punishment really affects me. It isn't a little done and over with thing with me. He lets things get bad before he takes action to make sure that I have good and earned the consequences. ★★★★★ Spanking started out as erotic play for us. After that very first punishment spanking, it took a while for me to be able to enjoy spanking again. (one reason Dragon didn't want dd) And still, I struggle with any kind of erotic touching. Dragon is slowly bringing it back. Touching and stroking. Telling me how wet I am. So far he hasn't pushed too far. Spanking is becoming sexy again. I think I like it that way. I am almost afraid that the next punishment will undo the progress. Only one way to know for sure is to take a punishment and see what happens. Time will tell....

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  1. Time is the answer to so many things.

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  2. have u tried other forms of punishment? I hate corner time more than spankings.. hope it all works out good..

    big hugs

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    1. That is and always has been his decision. I think he likes the paddle to get it over with fast. Less disruption in his day. I really don't have a say in that part of it.

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    2. I know its his decision but mayb u could suggest it to him ..just a thought

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    3. I suggested a few non spanking punishments months ago. All he said was 'I'll think about it.' He may surprise me with one but then he may not. With Dragon, I never know what to expect. He has just discovered that kneeling really doesn't hurt me. So far he only uses it for play.

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  3. Perhaps instead of launching straight into a punishment spanking Dragon could gradually heat your posterior? So it still hurts but doesn't shock? The alternative is to try to ensure you don't get many punishment spankings. The other thing is, could he issue you with a couple of warnings so you can avoid a punishment spanking? I always get two warnings, and then it's my own stupid fault if I carry on and take things too far. But mostly with me, I get punished for my attitude and my bad temper. I should, personally, hate to be made stand in a corner, and it would be totally non-beneficial. But I'm sure your Dragon knows you best of all. I don't feel experienced enough to suggest anything else, but good luck!

    Hugs

    Ami

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    1. It isn't what he is doing as it is me. My past really messed me up. Dragon found a broken girl. He has done so much to help. It just takes repetition. I have to see each time that he isn't going to hurt me. That he still loves me. Over and over again. Believe it or not DD has helped.

      I get mostly warnings and a lot of free passes. He holds me to the standard and is consistent. WWith me, most of the time, a look is more effective than anything else.

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