Monday, August 19, 2013
Panic and sub space
The house was quiet. The kids in bed, dogs crated and the cat curled up in her bed. Dragon took my hand and led me to the garage. I have a nice little area fixed up. I use the space for my daily workout and a retreat when the house gets to loud. Now it is a play space too! ♥♥♥♥ Dragon took my camisole and bra off. "are you ready to submit?" Yes I was. In no time at all, he had me deep into sub space. He finished up with the floggers and restrained my arms with stretch wrap. I was purring until he touched my neck. Then he did it again. I was deeply into sub space and unable to use safe words. He did it again and I absolutely panicked. Fear hit me in a way that it hasn't in years. I fought the restraints, heart rate spiked and I was gasping for breath. Dragon ripped the shrink wrap off to free my arms and sat in front of me. I was still so deep into my own head that talking me down didn't work. He had to play me down. Lots of touch, his voice and making me open my eyes. He had to get me aware enough to walk back in the house. Boy it was hard. All I wanted to do was sleep. ♥♥♥♥ Since we don't have a bed or even a couch out there yet, it wasn't a good idea at all. It took about 30 minutes but he finally brought me back to planet earth. I slept in his arms all night. No bad dreams and no worries. For one night, all was good in the world. ♥♥♥♥ All I can say this morning is WOW! Why yes, I had a great weekend. Thank you very much.