Sunday, January 3, 2016

The automatic shower

I usually shower late Saturday night but I was tired.  That bed was calling my name.  I snuggled down and didn't even think about church.


I ended up sharing an early morning shower with my Dragon.  He was almost done when I stepped under the water.  As soon as I had conditioner in my hair, he started scrubbing my back.  Slowly, he worked his way around my body top to bottom.

I felt loved, pampered, embarrassed, aroused, childish.  I wanted to push him away.  I wanted to pull him closer.  So many conflicting feelings. I didn't know what to do.  I submitted.  To everything.  To him because it is what he wanted and by the time he was done, I wanted more.

We are talking, renegotiating DD and BDSM.   Those kninky, fun things we do.  We have blurred the lines between DD and BDSM. That really helped him get going again. Realizing that those two aspects can be mixed and lines can be blurred.  Punishment doesn't have to be tears, fear and pain. It can be sexual torture, orgasm denial.  Kinky fun pushed just a little further than we normally go.

A ginger plug can be carved larger than usual.  Clamps just a little tighter and left on longer than I like. Kneeling, nudity, the cold garage, even role play.  Anything. Everything. TTWD is what we make it.

Our relationship doesn't have to look like anyone else's!  It can and should be unique to us.

One small step at a time.  I have submitted to almost every demand he has made for months.  It has been easy.  As he demands more, I hope I have the courage to keep submitting.


  1. Absolutely! Here's to doing it your own way.
    I loved your sentence 'I felt loved, pampered, embarrassed, aroused, childish.' I can really understand feeling all of those things at once.
    Happy new year!

    1. It is funny how emotions get so tangled up over something so simple.

  2. Beautifully stated, Rose! TTWD is whatever works for you two as a couple. So happy to read that you are moving forward.

    Hugs and blessings...Cat