spinning in circles

My head is spinning.  Just a week ago we were camping at a lake. On our last day there I got a phone call from my brother.  Our grandmother has had another stroke. Because she also had a small bleed they couldn't give her thrombotics.

Our oldest was going to move three states away but changed her mind at the last minute.  Dragon took several days off work to help.  The out of state rush rush rush trip wasn't needed any more but we still had the time off. So we took advantage of it.  After discounts, not counting gas or basic groceries our  mini vacation only set us back $35.  Not bad at all.

It ended with me in tears and wondering how I was going to get to my grandmother across two states.  I wanted to leave right then.  I was ready to hop on the motorcycle and go.  My brother was not thrilled with the idea but it was all I had.

Since he vetoed the bike I asked for help.  My mom offered but the logistics just were not working out.

On to plan C.

Wait until payday and then go.

It has been decided.  I know what day i am leaving and how long Ill have the rental car. My youngest will be my travel partner.  No driving those long miles alone. My brother even found a church for me.  I won't miss mass.

Days latter than I wanted to go but I think it is better this way.  Dragon is still on a hair trigger but more relaxed.  We have a plan in place that all of us can live with.

Please pray for my grandmother.  She is closest thing to a mom my brother ever had.  Pray for healing.  Pray for a safe trip and for the ones I leaving behind to find comfort.  I know Dragon will miss me but I need to go.  I can't explain how it feels but I absolutely know I need to be here.

I started one day relaxed and having fun. Well before lunch I was in tears.