Saturday, February 9, 2013

How does Dragon deal with my stress?

Oops...  Almost forgot a kink warning....

A scene.

It didn't last long but it was....


Thursday night I was a mess.

The decisions was made to say good bye to my best puppy buddy.  I was shaking and very close to tears.  Sitting bolt upright under the covers trying unsuccessfully to relax.  Dragon was sitting on his side of the bed about to lay down.  He walked around the bed and slipped into be bed behind me.  He pulled me back against his chest and rubbed my shoulders until the knots began to loosen just a little.

I sat up a little and he rubbed my back.  After a few minutes he leaned up and whispered in my ear. "Be very still."

I heard his knife snick open.  (Understand, Dragon keeps his knives VERY sharp)  He pulled the tip slowly across my skin.  Just hard enough to leave a faint line of blood.  A very minor scratch.  Over and over again the pulled the knife across my back.  Sometimes hard enough to barley break the skin, others just enough to make me gasp.

His arm wrapped around my neck.  My head tilted back as he put just a little pressure on my neck.  Then he reached across the bed and got his belt.  He draped it around my shoulders and across the front of my neck.  It felt delicious.  Just enough pressure to feel a sliver of panic.  I felt my mind slipping into sub space.

Even with as sad  and worried as I was, I still hit subspace.

Friday morning we started the day with lovemaking and ended the day with another scene.  The second scene didn't help me sleep.  I spent most of the night crying.  I miss my puppy so much.  But with Dragon around, I know I'll be ok.  Love my Man! ! !


  1. Oh Susie...I know the pain you are feeling. I promise you, it will ease over time. You have a wonderful man and he knows what you need so lean on him.

    Hugs and Blessings,

  2. You two have each other's backs and in this life, that is an absolutely beautiful thing, knowing you have the soft place to fall.

  3. So sorry about the loss of your buddy. Just try to think about what a wonderful life you were able to give your puppy buddy.

  4. So sorry about your puppy. It's never easy, they're like our children. But hold tight to Dragon, he'll see you through.


  5. I'm so sorry for your loss. We had to say goodbye to our very old and well loved cat in January. It's hard! I'm so glad your Dragon was able to help in your time of stress!


  6. You can call me CRAZY if you wish, but I believe, as many theologians do, that your puppy is in Heaven awaiting your arrival if your heart is right with God!!

    I have lost a number of pets that I have loved dearly, and I KNOW that they are waiting for me!!

    I hope that this shared belief will offer you encouragement during a tough time of loss!