I have written enough about the frustrations of PTSD and transitioning to civilian life. There is joy in my life too. Every day I find some small God has blessed us. An example? Dragon only had to work 12 hours. He will be home for supper today. Before he left for work this morning he told me how sexy it is that I make his breakfast wearing only his shirt and cut panties with a bow on them.
My children bring frustration to my life but they also bring joy every day. Pooh has figured out why I have her take notes on the chapters she read and why I have her work the example math problems in her book. To LEARN! My son is taking tests and using text books two years sooner than I had the girls on it. He is doing great. I am so proud of him. My 13 yo has taken right to her 8th grade work. She loves science as much as I do. My oldest has finally decided she wants to graduate high school. At 19, I have to say, better late than never. Seeing her become the young lady I always knew she could be is a joy in my life that i can not compare to anything else.
Our first day in the new house Dragon bought me a cactus. After a week it out grew the pot it came in. When he bought me a new pot for it, he also brought home 2 more! I love watching them grow. With a little TLC I can make a cactus grow beyond what the horticulturalist says they can. I love watching them get new leaves and spines. I watch the new growth every day and smile my secret smile.
See what I mean? Little things that make me happy.
I wrote about losing my my kitty while we were still house hunting. She was never healthy. After a month in the new house guess what shows up on our door step? A stay tom. He is so sweet. I bet some animal hater threw him out a car window and he ended up on our door step. He is very thin but we are working on that. He is a loving little thing. I would guess just a year old.
Another thing that brings joy to my life is the porch. I have our camp chairs arranged in a circle. It is the perfect size. After supper, when Dragon gets home in time to eat with us, we sit out there and watch the sun go down. Just the two of us. The kids clean the kitchen and vacuum under the dining room table.
The big things still worry me but there is joy in my life. Every where I look.