Squeamish

From time to time Dragon gets a little squeamish about TTWD.  Don't get me wrong. He is still fascinated with my ass.  Random swats are plentiful and so is sex in all the ways we both like it. The problem comes with a more serious spanking.

Over the last few months I had issues.  I couldn't submit to a spanking.  Just couldn't do it.  Flogging was fine and great. Marks and all.  Now the floggers are ruined and we are left with paddles and his ever present belt.

I say yes and he squirms.

It is all about head space. It isn't abuse.  It doesn't even have to be about discipline.  It is about us and connecting and being together.

I have a plan.

* clean up our play space.
*move one of our space heaters out there
*finish up a few fun sewing projects I started but didn't finish
*give up panties at home
*wear my dresses and stockings more

These are all things that please him.  Things that make him smile.  They will show submission on a level I haven't given him in a LONG LONG time.

Will these things make him pick up the paddles again?

No

But I know a secret.

He is happier when I am submissive.

We are closer when I submit.

Isn't that the goal?

I know something else too.

When he is happy with me, he is much more likely to spank.

I have a plan!

Since the weather us bad today, I'll work in the sewing room.  When he gets home I'll be dressed just for him.  A nice dress and the stockings I know he loves.