The Allergist

It is official.  I am allergic to almost everything. The ddoctor put me on several new drugs and is putting in a referral for another drug that needs approval.   She wants to do the allergy shots twice a week too.  

Fun fun.

Very happy I didn't have a tiger striped back.   I am sore enough as it is.

No Flogging tonight.   Not feeling very sexy after today.   Time to take my new meds and go to bed.

Flogging

I want a good Flogging so much but it won't happen tonight.   The ruff sex last night was great but it just wasn't what I wanted.  

You see, I have an appointment for allergy testing tomorrow.   My back will be very itchy before we finish.   I really don't want to explain tiger stripes to the nurse or doctor.  

Very bad idea.  

4 days so far without antihistamines.   I am wheezing, itchy and miserable.   My eyes itch. So does my throat and both of my ears.   My ankles and hands itch from working in the yard.  Probably not the best idea but it needed to be done.  

I think Dragon will be more than willing to give me a nice long reward scene after the appointment.   That and a box of Sees candy.  

I think I'll seduce Dragon again tonight.   More ruff sex should help.   Temporarily.  

Happy Easter

A little food for thought.

Mary had a little lamb
His fleece was white as snow.

And every where that Mary went,
He was sure to go.


He made His way to Calvary,
to pray for all our sins.

And three days later, conquered death
And rose to life again.

Mary had a little Lamb
His fleece was white as snow

He followed her to school one day
Which was against the rules

It made the children laugh and play
To see a Lamb in school.

And so the teacher turned him out
But still he lingered near.

He waited patiently about
Until Mary did appear

Why does the Lamb love Mary so
The eager children cry

Why Mary loves the Lamb you know
The teacher did reply.

Think about that today.

Hope you have a very blessed Resurrection Day!

Tears

I was going to make an extra effortttonight and wear makeup.   Not much.   Just eye liner, mascara and lip gloss.  

But.....

I am already in tears.

I am so proud. My three youngest kids are entering the church.   Three sacraments.   Baptism, First Communion and Confirmation.  

Breath....

They are all dressed so nice.   They look fantastic.   I am a ball of nerves.   We were told to eat before going but I don't think I can.   A three hour service that starts after sunset and sunrise service in the morning.   We will all need a break after this.

Did you know that Easter is not a federal holiday?   When the holidays were first set, Sunday was considered a holiday.   Now it is just another day.   I think I am going to work to change that.  

Yes,  Dragon has to work.   Poor Dragon.   It is his favorite holiday.   He rather work Christmas than Easter.   Prayers for my Dragon please.  His PTSD is very bad.   He is triggered hard.

Going to the Dogs

Well, I did it.

Our local pound was over crowded once agai .   They were warning the public that they were about to begin euthanizing animals.   They had to make room.

We went to see if any of these doomed puppies would work.   In the first row of kennels I saw her.   A wiggle butt that looked a bit like a greyhound.   Smiling face.   Things and a bit to short.   I moved on but came back to her.   The third time I knelt by her cage, the volunteer asked if I wanted to meet her.

I did and she was so sweet.   Boundless energ. Bouncing but ststill oobedient.   Even as a stray sitting in the pool, she sat for the toy.

I was impressed.

As hard as it is for me to leave the pound without taking ALL the puppies home, I had to think on it.

We went skating.   Even I laced up my scates for some think therapy.   By the third lap I was ready to go get her.

She is home.

A mutt.  Not the pedigree dog I usually train.   No selective breeding.   A few inches to short.  She isn't even a puppy. A bit mal nourished but she will get there.   She starts obedience training this week.   I still need to get her a few things.  A halty and a backpack that fits her.   But it will happen.  One step at a time.

She is one lucky dog.

Bad Dreams

Sometimes our dreams reflect our day and even our guilt.   That is what happened to Dragon last night.  

He dreamed that I divorced him.  

Why?

Lack of affection.   A hug and a kiss.   A simple touch and a cuddle on the couch.  

He realized that he had withdrawn from me and his dreams held him accountable.  

I had just started to notice that something was wrong.   I was braced for it to get worse.   The way it was before I started my blog, when PTSD ruled our lives and kept me walking on egg shells.  

WOW

He recognized it and stopped before it got bad. I am sure that this is going to be a struggle for a while.  But...  Since he recognizes the problem, we will be able to work through it.  

GO DRAGON!

Safe Word Training

Oh carp!

Dragon gave me two chances to use a safe word today and I refused.  He pushed hard and I didn't do it.  The first time was after church.  He wanted to go into the city to find some gear for one of our sports loving kids.  I hate the city.  The traffic, people, lack of open space.  I was nearly panicked but I refused to safeword.

The second time happened after we were settled in at home.  It was storming so yard work wasn't going to happen.  Instead we worked in the garage. Cleaning and a building project.  Then it was play time. Dragon pushed hard.  He kept reminding me to use my words.  Asked for my color several times.  The flogger flew faster and harder.  Still I refused.

We ran out of time to finish our little scene.  Kids,life,dogs bad weather...  pick one or pick all.  Now it is time for some serious safe word training.  Why didn't I realize what he was doing earlier?  This time he is going to use the paddle.  Yikes.  I haven't been able to take the paddle in months.  I am nervous.

Time to face the music. I'll update later. Time to go!