If you are a regular reader, you know that I haven't been feeling all that great. Dragon has been trying to get me to rest and let my body heal. That is hard to do.
I love to stay active and move. Walking, running, P90X anything! Sewing, taking care of the kids and making life easier for him. I stay busy. But not in the last few weeks. I haven't felt like doing much at all. Every day I feel guilty. He works so hard and I am sleeping around the clock.
Then last night Dragon bought me another book off of amazon. Nothing strange about that other than the fact that he has been getting me 2 or 3 books a week since I have been feeling bad. Normally I may get one a month, two if he is really happy with me. Dragon wanted me to rest and the best way to make sure that I stay off my feet is a good book.
I feel loved this morning. I have 3 new books to start the week and his approval to start walking again. No running or strenuous workout. Just a slow walk.
Anniversary spanking!
It was great. A nice, gentile reminder that he is still on top of things. I was hurting, so it wasn't the barn burner that I crave but it was just right for last night.
I had a thought this morning. Dragon is having a hard time with a supervisor that really doesn't need to be in a leadership position. She screams and yells. She has no idea how to lead and tries to bully instead. I pray for Dragon every day. These morning, I decided to pray for her to.
I know she has several grievances against her. I hope something happens to change her attitude. She makes mornings miserable for everyone.
Monday, September 30, 2013
Sunday, September 29, 2013
Date night
Dragon asked me what I wanted to do. I only had to think for just a minute. Dragon has had a very hard time with ptsd lately. One problem is lack of down time. He has no time to do the things he loves.
So for our date we went fishing. I HATE fishing but marriage is about us and not just me. Love my man just a little. I'll let you know how the spanking is when I get it.
Kid issues mixed up our weekend plans
So for our date we went fishing. I HATE fishing but marriage is about us and not just me. Love my man just a little. I'll let you know how the spanking is when I get it.
Kid issues mixed up our weekend plans
Friday, September 27, 2013
Anniversary time?
What was that? Yep. We will be celebrating our anniversary this weekend. 20 years together. 19 of those years as husband and wife.
Not sure what we will do yet but I have a feeling that it will include an anniversary spanking. I think that is the perfect way to celebrate. Maybe a picnic or dinner out. Movie? No idea. What we do isn't important, as long as we do it together.
Not sure what we will do yet but I have a feeling that it will include an anniversary spanking. I think that is the perfect way to celebrate. Maybe a picnic or dinner out. Movie? No idea. What we do isn't important, as long as we do it together.
Tuesday, September 24, 2013
Hope
I have hope! Hope that Dragon will get off in time for a scene. The ginger is in the refrigerator, paddles and floggers ready. This will be the first time we have combined impact play with figging. Both are intense. It may be too much sensation but it is worth a try.
We have been talking about alternate punishments. Things that can be done away from home. Or even at home if spanking isn't possible. He has used time out for a while. Funny, it never feels like a punishment. It is a relief but just what I need.
We have been talking about alternate punishments. Things that can be done away from home. Or even at home if spanking isn't possible. He has used time out for a while. Funny, it never feels like a punishment. It is a relief but just what I need.
Monday, September 23, 2013
Getting Better
The facial pain has not completely gone away but it is much better. It doesn't last all day. Today I had two flair ups. They hurt just as bad but I am grateful for the improvement.
The bad news? One of the drugs I take on a regular basis is making me sick. Aleve, Alegra, Benadryl or maybe the sudaphed. Blag. Only the Aleve is for the facial pain. The rest helps with the seasonal allergies. Good news is that I don't think it is any of the asthma meds.
I took the Alegra this morning and nothing else all day. So far so good with that one.
Dragon is working so many hours right now. I worry about him. Fewer people to do the same job as last year. It makes for good paychecks but I miss my Dragon.
The bad news? One of the drugs I take on a regular basis is making me sick. Aleve, Alegra, Benadryl or maybe the sudaphed. Blag. Only the Aleve is for the facial pain. The rest helps with the seasonal allergies. Good news is that I don't think it is any of the asthma meds.
I took the Alegra this morning and nothing else all day. So far so good with that one.
Dragon is working so many hours right now. I worry about him. Fewer people to do the same job as last year. It makes for good paychecks but I miss my Dragon.
Friday, September 20, 2013
Late Night Pain Relief
We went outside to look up at the moon. It was beautiful and shining bright. The garage door was right there. It seemed like a shame to miss such an opportunity.
My mouth was hurting. The pain was getting harder to deal with. It just won't stop. But there isn't anything a few endorphins won't help.
Dragon sat in the chair with me kneeling in front of him. He gently flogged my chest. Therain of lleather continued until I was so relaxed, I started falling over. I went into child's pose and Dragon continued, flogging my back.
Then comes the knock on the door. Brave child. None of them have ever dared to disturb up in the garage before. But it wasn't anything serious. I don't think she will do that again though.
When Dragon finally got back to me, I was stretched out on the cardboard I use as a yoga mat. (fitness on a non existing budget) He paddled my backside and rubbed my stinging back.
For one night, I slept like a well flogged subby.
My mouth was hurting. The pain was getting harder to deal with. It just won't stop. But there isn't anything a few endorphins won't help.
Dragon sat in the chair with me kneeling in front of him. He gently flogged my chest. Therain of lleather continued until I was so relaxed, I started falling over. I went into child's pose and Dragon continued, flogging my back.
Then comes the knock on the door. Brave child. None of them have ever dared to disturb up in the garage before. But it wasn't anything serious. I don't think she will do that again though.
When Dragon finally got back to me, I was stretched out on the cardboard I use as a yoga mat. (fitness on a non existing budget) He paddled my backside and rubbed my stinging back.
For one night, I slept like a well flogged subby.
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
Living
It has been one week since the dental work was done and I am still in a great deal of pain. I think the dentist damaged the trigeminal nerve. The dentist thinks some of my headaches are associated with that trigeminal nerve already and with it damaged by a shot of Novocain, it is even worse than usual.
But here is the deal. I can't stop living. I cope with chronic pain every day. I get out of bed with a limp. I hold the spatula with aching hands as I make Dragon's breakfast. Running, I smile even though pain is shooting up my legs. Shin splints maybe?
My point is that every thing I do, every day is painful. My body is falling apart and has been for years. Why should this keep me down? Headaches are a part of life for me. Sometimes a daily part of life. This headache just hurts in a new spot. This one is centered on the spot the dentist injected the novocain. No different than any other pain I deal with just in a spot that is new.
One step at a time. I can do this. Get back into my routine of getting up, cooking, running and working out. Doing school work with the kids, working in my sewing room, playing with the animals and cooking supper. All the things that keep life busy for a stay at home mom.
I feel a little like Bob the Builder.
Can we do it?
Yes we can!
I have had enough of laying around. It is time to get up and put on my big girl panties. I can do it! One task at a time. And it isn't a failure if I have to take extra breaks. Who cares if my run turns into a walk.
But here is the deal. I can't stop living. I cope with chronic pain every day. I get out of bed with a limp. I hold the spatula with aching hands as I make Dragon's breakfast. Running, I smile even though pain is shooting up my legs. Shin splints maybe?
My point is that every thing I do, every day is painful. My body is falling apart and has been for years. Why should this keep me down? Headaches are a part of life for me. Sometimes a daily part of life. This headache just hurts in a new spot. This one is centered on the spot the dentist injected the novocain. No different than any other pain I deal with just in a spot that is new.
One step at a time. I can do this. Get back into my routine of getting up, cooking, running and working out. Doing school work with the kids, working in my sewing room, playing with the animals and cooking supper. All the things that keep life busy for a stay at home mom.
I feel a little like Bob the Builder.
Can we do it?
Yes we can!
I have had enough of laying around. It is time to get up and put on my big girl panties. I can do it! One task at a time. And it isn't a failure if I have to take extra breaks. Who cares if my run turns into a walk.
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