Independence Day

This is one of the hardest holidays for me. 23 years ago today I went to my father's funeral. I was 18 years old and only a month out of high school. He lost a 2 year battle with ALL. I thought that Dragon's retirement would mean that I would be able to put flowers on his head stone? Not this year. Dragon is trying to figure it out but I don't see a way. Everyone is celebrating and I am crying again. The good news is that I won't have to deal with family. Dragon has things to do and can't leave the area. *** Tonight, I am going to ask for a spanking. Maybe even a full scene. Dragon knows how to help. He knows what I need. I'll ask and leave the rest up to him. I want to fly. Or at least forget for just a little while. Ropes and knives maybe. That will get my mind off of everything. We don't have any fire sticks made. That would add just the right mind fuck to the night. Nothing blows my mind more than seeing flames dance across my skin. The alcohol we use burns away and leaves my skin hot and mostly undamaged. *** Now to wait. Dragon may have to work late tonight. Even if he is tired, he will take the time to help me. He knows how hard it is to put on a smile and act like nothing is wrong. He will do what it takes to make it easier. Love my man just a little